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[red_lasbelin]

So, I uploaded my lotr_sesa fic. I'm very happy with it, but I'm not sure I can do the December swap thing again. It makes me sad because I very much love Christmas swaps, but my Decembers are consistently slammed these past few years. Work is always crazy, I have the MSV sign-ups and then everything Christmas and seasonal comes in and plows me over.

This December is particularly rough, because my aunt was hospitalized a week ago because of a bad fall. She wasn't in a good health place to begin with, and now her situation is particularly dire. She also lives really far away, and I need to figure out a way to get to see her. Right now I'll either see her because she's better or because she's passed, it's that bad.

I spent the last two months wanting to plan a trip to see her and catch up, but I didn't, because I was too busy and I thought I'd have January when things slowed down. I'm finding the old adage about doing things now because you never know what could happen all too true. I'm kind of crushed right now. I could have made the time, somehow, and now I don't think I'll ever have the chance.

This is just...a really shitty Christmas, 2013. I'd very much appreciate prayers, candles and/or good thoughts for my aunt and my family.

Comments

[elfscribe5.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear about your aunt, Red. Sending good thoughts your direction.

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Elfscribe. They are very much appreciated. *hugs*

[minuial_nuwing]

I am so sorry to hear about your aunt, Red. Thinking of you all and hoping for the best outcome possible. Candles will be lit.

**hugs you tight**

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Min. We're leaving tomorrow to go see her one last time now. Thoughts for safe travel would be appreciated.

*hugs back*

[minuial_nuwing]

You have them, love. Take care and be gentle with yourself.

[larienelengasse.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Red. I am sending good thoughts and energy your family's way.

I understand what you mean about the Christmas swap. I had to ask for an extension because I'm frankly knackered when I get home from work and it's hard to be creative when you're that tired, and it seems like I've had something going on every single weekend, so that ate into my writing time. I'm hoping things will slow down after the New Year, for both of us.

Don't beat yourself up about the situation with your aunt. It's always so easy for us to see how we could have done things differently or better. But you do what you can do each and everyday and it's unfair to expect more than that of yourself.

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the encouraging words, Larien. I'll try to take it to heart, but it's difficult now that it's clear my aunt's passing. Going to try to get there as soon as possible.

We're of the same mind as far as the Christmas swap - and I had multiple work project deadlines that all converged on me...I still don't know how I got through last week, lol, but somehow I did. Trying to get through the rest of it. January sounds lovely, I hope we both make it there.

[nienna-weeper.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, hon. Ours isn't too great either.

Your aunt will understand either way - but it is so hard to see our families passing. *Hugs*

Lots of prayers and good wishes coming your way...

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much, Nienna. I'm going to go see her, while I still can. Just kicking myself.

I don't think anyone I've talked to has had a really great year this time. I'm sorry yours isn't great either. *hugs*

[chaotic-binky.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your aunt - I hope she recovers so you can see her again. Keeping her in my thoughts.

*hugs*

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

I'm going to go see her, leaving tomorrow morning. But not under good circumstances, leaving to say goodbye. I hope I have that chance.

Thank you for keeping her in your thoughts. *hugs tight*

[keiliss.livejournal.com]

This has been such a horrible year, hasn't it? Holding your aunt and your family in my heart.

And I don't know about not doing Christmas swaps, the result was a lovely little story.

*loves*

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Just - horrific. Me and you and your cousin and - everyone else. Very discouraged.

Thank you dear. For everything.

[aglarien1.livejournal.com]

Adding your aunt to the prayer list and keeping her in my prayers.

*hugs*

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, Agie. My cousin doesn't believe she's going to live very much longer, so prayers for either a miracle or safe passage would be very appreciated.

*hugs*

[phyncke.livejournal.com]

I am sorry about your Aunt. Sending prayers her way.

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much, Jane. I got your Christmas card, by the way. Thank you. *hugs*

[erviniae.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you are in a rough way. Wish the best for your aunt and family.
*hugs*

[melusine6619.livejournal.com]

Oh, hun, you most certainly have my prayers and good thoughts for you all. *hugs tight*

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, Mel. I appreciate the prayers, good thoughts and most definitely the hug.

[mithrial.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear about your sad times.
I do hope you get to see you Aunt and say your goodbyes.
Sending you hugs, and hoping that 2014 will start a brighter more positive time for you, Red.

T. xxx

[red-lasbelin.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Tia! I did get a chance to say goodbye, which helped. I'm really sad, but I'd be devastated if I hadn't seen her.

*hugs*

[mithrial.livejournal.com]

Big hugs to you, Red.
xxx